Because I take Celexa regularly for anxiety and depression I so very rarely get flareups of extreme anxiety, so when I do it sometimes take awhile to figure out what is going on. Especially when I have just had stomach flu because my anxiety feels like nausea most of the time.
Which is what has happened over the last couple of days.
Normally when I have more than the normal anxiety (which is controlled with Celexa) I just get a racing heart and it most often occurs when I wake up in the morning. It usually goes away by the time I get to work.
This time it is lingering. I am worried, but not about anything specifically. I can find plenty to worry about (bills, asteroids, doing my job well, fire, tornados, winterstorms, etc), but nothing is causing the worry. I do not feel anxiety and think "this is it--this is what it is about!". I just feel an overwhelming sense that something is wrong and it is making me continue to feel sick.
Of course, I could still be feeling the lingering effects of nausea (which I think is a part of it), but I think the anxiety is making it worse.
I have an idea of where the anxiety is stemming from. It is 2 things. One, my job and two, the big storm coming tomorrow night. I kind of had a rough week at work last week. It weighed heavily on my mind over the weekend. Today went extremely well, though. I am optimistic again and feeling better about my abilities. Yet the anxiety remains. We have a huge winter storm rolling in tomorrow. Normally I find storms exciting and I have prepared for this one and do not specifially feel any anxiety about its coming, but I think just the excitement and uncertainty is fueling my anxiety.
I have not felt this level of uncontrollable anxiety since the first time I had an anxiety attack nearly 10 years ago. I have the tools to deal with it, though. I am continuing to take my Celexa (I may have missed a dose or 2 while sick, which could have also contributed) and I took a Xanax. I am allowing myself time to relax this evening and not worry about cleaning or anything. I am going to take a hot bath with lavendar epsom salt. If I am still feeling bad tomorrow I will go to the doctor. The biggest thing I have on my side is awareness of what is happening and knowing when I need to ask for help. The litmus test will be when I try to go to sleep tonight. If I am constantly waking up with a racing heart then it is to the doctor ASAP!
If you have any other suggestions I welcome them!! Once after I was diagnosed with anxiety I had a brief attack and it entered into my brain to change my bed sheets and I kid you not, I felt instantly better after that simple thing! Not gonna happen this time as my winter sheets are on the bed!!! LOL.